Friday, May 23, 2008


Does anyone besides me have trouble REALLY praying. Okay I throw up "arrow" prayers all day and I do actually pray after I read my Bible in the morning but lately my soul has been yearning for more. Oftentimes when God is trying to get my attention He will use EVERYTHING to point me towards something. So for the past 2 weeks everything I read (devotions, Sunday School lessons, blogs, etc) and everything I hear (sermons, music, conversations) have been about prayer. I even dreamed about prayer (I rarely even remember what I dream each night so just the fact that I can recall the events says something to me).

I don't know why it is so hard to just stop and pray. I can sit on the computer or the phone for hours and never run out of things to say. But sit down and talk to God and my mind wanders and I'm done talking in about a minute. I need to learn to be quiet and just let God talk to me too.

Today I read Steven James' blog and guess what....yep it's about prayer. I love how he explains that we talk about what is on our minds with our friends...why not with God? I also love how he states "Real prayers are not flimsy and weak, but big and round and bold. They don't worm their way into heaven, they pound on the door and knock it down." Now that's praying! That's what I want in my life. I've been there before where I've poured my heart out and left it laying on the floor. What I found was a loving God that picked up my heart and made it whole again.

James also tells us that we don't need the right words (the Holy Spirit groans when we can't find the words to say) we just need the right attitude.

I don't know if this is God's way of telling me that a storm is coming my way and I need to find my firm foundation again and stand on Him or is He telling me that He misses me and wants me to come have lunch. Could be both. But I'm listening and I'm going to have lunch often!!